In the Beginning

In the Beginning, I had no idea what I was in for.  It took us a few months to get pregnant, and some help.  I found out I was pregnant at about 6 am, on a Sunday morning.  Needless to say, my husband was less than excited that I chose that time to find out.  When I first looked at the plus sign on the pregnancy test, I thought, we're having twins!  My husband realistically assured me that my chances of having twins, had barely gone up, and I needed not worry about it.  The twin idea, was gone. 

From that first pregnancy test, we both felt we were having a girl.  We just knew.  Although in the days leading up to my first ultrasound (of many) at 16 weeks, I started feeling a bit uneasy about our baby being a girl.  I still felt like she was a girl, but I also felt like she was a boy.  I know, impossible to have a baby that is both boy and girl, but that's how I felt, confused.  I still remember driving to the doctor's that cold morning discussing how I would suddenly feel different about the gender of our baby.

We checked in with the receptionist, and soon we were on our way back with the ultra-sound tech.  We chatted amicably during the ultra-sound, and soon found out we were going to be blessed with a little boy.  I knew my feelings were right.  The tech was just about to wrap everything up, when he said, "I have something funny to tell you," then he said something that forever changed my life, and was not expected, "You're having twins!"  We soon found out that not only where we having a little boy, we were also having a little girl. 

I was in a state of shock, to put it mildly.  The shock slowly wore off, and was replaced with the overwhelming feeling of inadequacy.  We were going to be responsible for two new lives, not just one.  Thus the roller-coaster of twins begins!